I
seem
to
have
misplaced
30%
of
my
sight
in
the
last
6
months.
:(
Went to an optometrist today and though the strength I need for my glasses remained the same, I see 30% less and this happened within the last 6 months (I'm talking with glasses). I've been complaining for a long time that I've been seeing badly but last time they couldn't measure anything that was beyond what could fall into standard deviation. So off to the hospital it is. Been there before, manymany times, got kicked out due to cutbacks but that was a misjudgement on their part as it now turns out.
Yep, I'm terrified.
You know, I handled to some point with the constant pain and not being able to do any of the things I liked like cycling and camping and mountains. I handled the skin inflammations, I learned which creams and medication to use and what makeup to use and how to cover it. With my teeth, I could deal with it to some point. This bronchitis I've had for the past 6 months, I can live with that. They told me my liver values in my blood were bad, I could deal with that. I'm nauseous half the time and green but hey I'm alive right?
I had some sort of thing growing in my ovaries which if it doesn't stop growing is gonna be real bad but hey I can deal with that, because if I can't have children and want some anyway, I'll adopt one from Russia, I'm Russian by nationality still and always will be. My kidneys giving in, hey you can always go to the hospital thrice a week and they'll patch you up if it gets worse.
But MY EYESIGHT!?
I figure skate, I paint, I study law, that's the only three things in my live bringing me the strength to live on, and you can't do that without eyesight!
It's just like, it never stops does it? It's just one thing after the other. What, am I a mummy, 3000 years old from a museum, to fall apart piece by piece?! I'm not 90 years old, this shit should be happening to 90 year olds! Instead I know 67 year olds who are running marathons and 220 kilometres on a day and teaching sports! I do sports a lot, I eat healthily, I've never hurt anybody, I don't drink, I don't smoke, I help wounded animals, I try to be conscious of the environment, WHAT THE HELL did I do wrong?! When's this gonna stop?!
