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Thank you Gizzy. Life has just been rough... As I answered Johan, I'm not feeling well, and I'm not sleeping, and I'm starting to really worry and freak out. Then there are all the side things that have been going wrong lately, and the feeling of getting nothing accomplished and an inability to rest.... it's just all piling up terribly.
Something really dumb pushed me over the edge today, and I just sat there, in the computer lab, about to cry... I just work so hard and I want things to work out, but these things aren't coming together. I have all these dreams, and ambitions, and goals, but they all seem to slip through my fingers. I know what part of the problem is: I've lost my focus, and I'm trusting my own strength way too much, and not relying on God for the strength I need... and so I am slowly spiralling downwards.
The last year or so has been really rough for me. It's starting to get better, and emotionally and mentally I feel better (I can tell... I've been clinically depressed before... when I was 14 actually, so I know it well)... it's just a slow climb back up. Matthew has been great through it all, but now that the mental and emotional is coming back together, my health is going... and it's unsettling to say the least. I don't want to get checked out, though, because I'm afraid I'm making a big deal out of something small... I donno.
I'll probably call Mom tmra. She's one of those symptom nuts.. My grandmother wanted to work in the OR, but she couldn't because of her disability (She had polio when she was 9, so she had a leg that didn't work as well)... so that filtered down to Mom... I'll call her and see what she has to say.
As I said before, I'm not stressed. I'm really at a calm, and a peace... but my health is unnerving, and all these things are just falling apart at once... and it's a lot to handle...
You rock Gizzy. *HUGS*
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AUTHOR OF THIS MESSAGE
Muffy
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26 september 2005, 22:53:46
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