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:Is it what you expected or hoped for 5 years ago? 1 year ago?
5 years ago - well, I suppose I assumed I'd go to uni and be graduating after 3 years, which I'm doing, so in that way I suppose yes. 1 year ago, again with the graduation, but in every other way probably no ;-) I expected to be going onto a do a PGCE after uni, which I didn't get into this year...so the job situation is very up in the air at the moment. I didn't expect to have a boyfriend and be kinda in the process of settling down, which is really scary. I'm moving in with him in a couple of weeks (also completely unplanned in my mind), we've been going out for almost a year - he's nothing like the guy I thought I'd eventually settle down with, I certainly never meant to be at all committed this young. We're completely wrong for each other, but I love him very much, so kinda whenever I try to talk myself out of it in my head, my heart takes over ;-) Which is a weird situation. And scares me quite a lot.
Are you happy where you are at the moment?
Everything's so uncertain - I don't really know where I'm going or how I'll get there, or even if I want to ;-) I guess I'm trying to take one day at at time and see how it goes, everytime I try to plan for the future I get scared because everything's so scary and nothing can be relied on. I'm happier than I was this time last year though.
What are your plans and dreams for the next year (or five)?
I'd love to get a classroom assistant job in a lovely school, and apply for teacher training in a couple of years when I've had the experience doing that. I'd love it if me and D can make it work, but I'm terrified I'll end up in a relationship that doesn't make me happy because we're so different and have completely different attitudes and ideas about most things. And I'm scared he'll cheat on me and I'll end up getting my heart broken.
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(VISITOR) AUTHOR'S NAME
Eri
MESSAGE TIMESTAMP
08 july 2006, 22:09:39
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