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February 24, 2012 11:07 pm by crazymags I alulatcy read this book (what a surprise) and it did change the way I though about being a woman. But then after not more than a day or two, I forgot about what I read. Or probably the world around me got me back on track and reminded me how the society wants me to be. also it is harder when u r in sports. I used to be a student-athlete in College, so everybody expected u do be 100%, every single day, it didn't matter if u got your period or had cramps or whatever. U still have to wear those tight outfits for matches, even if you dont feel like wearing them when u have your period. So I hated having my period. My ED got really bad a some point and I stopped having my periods. This is also the time when I got hospitalized because I just stopped eating and everything was just really bad. When I got out I was not allowed to be on the team for the rest of the season, because of my eating issues. But I still went running and such on my own. and I felt great without my periods. I didn't have my periods for almost a year. Before I lost them and after I got them back I always had them super irregular. Sometimes eveery other month, sometimes i wouldnt have one for 3 months. Probably because of my ED. I stared birth control this summer and since this time I am having a regular period. and honestly it's been a pain in the ass!!! I loved not having them so often. So now I am alulatcy thinking about stopping birth control. I also feel that the birth control makes my mood way more unstable than it was before anyways. But then on the other hand, if I do wanna have kids at some point (wouldnt be any time soon), I probably should just stick with the birth control, so that I do get my period every month.I also do get really hungry during the week and it really pissed me off, I feel like I just can't stop anymore. I hate this feeling. Sometimes, my whole body just hurts. Is this really what we want, what we should be thankful for? I don't know. But then on the other hand again, I kind of feel more self confident when things inside my body work they are supposed to work. So thats kind of nice i guess.
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(VISITOR) AUTHOR'S NAME
Merve
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